" Because it was him. Because it was me."
When you least expect it, nature has cunning ways of finding our weakest spot. Just... remember I'm here. Right now you may not want to feel anything. Maybe you never wanted to feel anything. And uh, maybe it's not to me you'll want to speak about these things but uh... feel something you obviously did. Look, you had a beautiful friendship. Maybe more than a friendship. And I envy you. My place, most parents would hope the whole thing goes away, pray their sons land on their feet but... I am not such a parent. We rip out so much of ourselves to be cured of things faster that we go bankrupt by the age of thirty and have less to offer each time we start with someone new. But to make yourself feel nothing so as not to feel anything... What a waste. Have I spoken out of turn? Then I'll say one more thing. It will clear the air. I may have come close, but I never had what you two have. Something always... held me back, or... stood in the way. How you live your life is your business. Just... remember, our hearts and our bodies are given to us only once. And, before you know it, your heart's worn out, and... and as for your body, there comes a point where no one looks at it, much less wants to come near it. Right now there's sorrow... pain... don't kill it, and with it the joy you've felt.