"I want them to have a nice time while they're alive, because they like having a nice time...But they don't love me and Booper---that way. I mean they don't seam able to love us just the way we are. They don't seam able to love us unless they can keep changing us a little bit. They love their reasons for loving us almost as much as they love us, and most of the time more. It's not so good, that way."