I had one last chance to make a decision. One final opportunity to deicide who I was going to be. I could step into that alley, stand up for Hassan–the way he'd stood up for me all those times in the past–and accept whatever would happen to me. Or I could run.In the end, I ran.I ran because I was a coward. I was afraid of Assef and what he would do to me. I was afraid of getting hurt. That's what I told myself as I turned my back to the alley to Hassan. That's what I made myself belive. I actually aspired to cowardice, because the alternative, the real reason I was running, was that Assef was right: Nothing is free in this world. Maybe Hassan was the price I had to pay, the lamb I had to slay to win Baba. Was it a fair price? The answer floated to my conscious mind before I could thwart it: he was just a Hazara, wasn't he?
It hurts my heart to read this part of the book.
I felt sorry. Sorry for Hassan to have a friend who would not stand up for him as what he always do for his friend. Sorry for Amir because he was too young to make the decision, and obiviously he has regretted and suffered from the decision he made. I felt sorry for both of them, for living in a world full of selfishness and prejudices.
Hassan is a loyal friend. Maybe it is his loyalty and obedience that caused this tragic outcome. If he did not always obey Amir's unreasonable requests, maybe Amir would learn to be more respectful to him and be willing to fight for him. As a child he takes too much responsibility than he should, I guess that is why he is much more matured than Amir. The tribulations in his life has smoothed his edges, but this incident might have destroyed his life. As a Hazara, a servant, he is born to have a miserable life. Although Amir's father treat him and his father as friends, the society will never treat them with any respect. He lived in the wrong place at a wrong time. He has great talent, but his talent would neither be recognized or respected. No matter how smarter he is than Amir, he is just a Hazara.
Amir was young, and all he wanted was to win his Baba's attention. Most child at his age would probably made the same decision. And who would sacrafice themselves for others, especially one who was considered to be inferior by the society. It needs great courage to stand up for other people and against those who beat him down easily. I just wish he would tell Hassan that he was sorry, even though Hassan might hate him for the rest of their lives. And Hassan may not, because he is so kind and never blame for Amir's mistake. If he kept ignoring it like it had never happened, which he did, it is going to haunt him forever.
He is also so silly to think that he would win Baba's attention by doing what he did. If Baba found out what he did to his friend, Amir may lose Baba forever. Baba may not be a good father, but he is a great master to Ali. He treats Ali as his best friend. I wonder why his son would act so differently.
Amir abandoned Hassan, but he did not do anything wrong in that era. However, would it make much difference if they were living in the world today. The class system does not exist, but discriminations never ends.
When will there be true equalities? Despite the colour of our skin, are we all citizens of this world?