You two had a nice friendship.

You have a beautiful friendship. Maybe more than a friendship. And I envy you. What you two have, had everything and nothing to do with intelligence. You were both lucky to have found each other. 
Feel something you obviously did. 
I may have come close, but I never have what you two have. Something’s always held me back or stood in the way. 
How you live your life is your business. Our hearts and our bodies are given to us only once. And before you know it, your heart’s worn out. And as for your body, there comes a point where no one looks at it, much less wants to come near it. 
Right now, there is sorrow, pain. Don’t kill it, and with the joy you’ve felt.